cant sleep and wondering sooo alot..

• she's beautiful. (anugerahhh kate dia)


• she's intelligent ( ngah amek degree kowt. i aint investigate. but i can c that)


• she's sooo 'perempuan' (i mean feminin..jgn slh anggap ok?!)


• she's anak olang kaya ( thot so...)


• she knows him longer and love him like befor3 and the same time..


• she slim.. (of coursee)


• she l0v3 her boy friend sooo alot


• that guy pun loves her sooo ahlot ( thot sooo)


• 'this' guy pun loves her sooo alot (till i cant help him or my self.)


• she left him and say gud bye.


• she catches his heart and doesn't return it back ( hai ooohhh...)


• she have a gud heart ( i think...)


• she's bright...


• she's all that he wants


• he never forgets her


• she met him for a many time ( yelah...kate couple..)
• he keep her picture.. (jeles seyhh.....sket laa..sbb abg amer keep my pic ape.. :) )

while i...

• not beautiful in fact, ugly (ye la kot..eyy!!! at least 'that cute n pandai boy loves me for 6 years!yeahh...my fault...)


• i dont have degree..Ade dip + sijil kemahiran penyediaan roti keluaran ikbn.(mahal tuy!)


• im soooo not perempuan.. ( ganas ke?hahaa..u know me ke?im useless..)


• im anak olang tak berada...(memang pon.)


• i know him like 1 year and a lebih++ months


• im not slim. (what?i love to eat seyhhhh,anugerah jugekkk)


• i dont have a boyfriend to lov3 or to b3 loved


• i l0ve 'this' guy soo alot...tapi...


• i never leave him no matter what.i did say gudbye for a gudnite (tooth fairy la katekan..hahaha)


• he catches my heart and never return it back..waaaaaaa( hai ohhh)


• i dont have a gud heart (may be...only sape yg kenal je tau..coz i u know me better than i do.)


• im not that bright..(kan ske emo..mane bole gne color bright!!!!)


• he's aallllllll that i want (really? i'll leave him for duke orsina and austin ames and!serius!and daniel ..gosh i love u...say u love me too la silly!)


• i never forget him (a'ah ek?aku baru perasan la...)


• i met him once ( that was a sweet day for me..awwww..tp,tatau la dia...)
• he dont keep my pic while im his or now...not his (i knew it!!!!!!choiiii)

huh... listed oledy.. u guys pun pk what i did,kan?

'owh...no wonder la he cant leave her...kesian u...u r sooo malang...sabar ye dik...'

cheh...watpe nk kesian?aku yang cr padah ni... ngee...ske gile main api.. hahaha

i dunno whats on his mine... biar kan hati berbicara(cutenye ayattt). but i owes guess it is not gonna be on my side.. sooo not gonna be...

have u guys ever feel what i felt?mesti rase cm nk bunuh diri kan?hahaha..penah la skali org teerpk to do that...but tak jd.sbb rase cam pariaa laaa..bukan nk bunuh diri sebab aku sayang gile kat dia...tapi aku rase nk bunuh diri sebab aku dalam dilema..rase je la...len2 takder.

skang there's soo much good sign which bad for me ( owez cenggitu..waaaaa) like....

• they're more closer.


• they can say hi.


• they can be friends again.
• thye can meet!!!!!

gud huh? dont u think? well, i do think that's gud. coz he can survive.. alhamdulillahh.. no wonder la life's full with stress..this kind of stress? love is stressfull.it makes u become afraid to lose,worried, and so much2..but when it becomes beautiful.u can even angkat this bumi then put it a side just for our love one to lalu.

it is a sad situation for me.. but i survive. walau pun teringin sangat nk punch org then say "yo,take this shit!and... get a life!" u know why?

• dahi ku asyik berkedutt je memikirkan situasi


• kepala slalu migrain.. (chehh..alasan ni...padahal tak thn panas!)


• jd tak concentrate.. (ade ke buat cookies letak gula kasar + letak garam 2 sudu?)


• perut aku slalu wase cm neves..(wallaaa..rase cam masa nk amek paper JAVA dolu2)


• aku jadi a bit emo (bukan emo tu!!! ni emosional laaaa...)


• kat meja makan,mesti aku hold ipod nk dengar lagu ribas-sebelah hati ngan im not ok -mcr


• mak aku jadi pening tengok aku kurengs semacam.


• aku makin sengal. untuk mengelakkan aku mengeluh.sangat sengal.tahap dewa dewi


• aku main mesej ngan org yang aku benci untuk mengelakkan aku ingt dia(waa... i killed my credits..but bukan u tau wafi!org lain..incase if u read this.)


• aku hampir menyebabkan kemalangan jiwa ank org lain ( aku ske part ni)


• aku hampir terpegang ulau sebab ralit


• aku semakin ske tarik2 lips...sakit...(anis...sowie aku mrh ko dulu..skang da kena kat akuu)


• aku jadi rayannnn...( ni aku tak skali.sbb buat aku rase fly2)

huhuhuhu... dah la.. maaalas nk pikey....saye ade penyelesaian nye kot..kan2? neways, thanks sebab baca ke-merapu-an saya yang oxymoron ni..disebabkan anda rajin menghabiskannya..anda bole tuntut BIGMAC kat mc d ngan memnyanyikan lagu bigmac kat mcd dlm masa 4 saat. tak pun, tuntut je burger abg encem taman jasa kat saya...nnt sy g bayar. walaupun burgernye tak sedap mane, tapi dia tetap hensem dan suke lagu 'with you' waaaa... :D...

aku rase aku da release skeyt and rase macam darling aku da panggil aku untuk beradu...sebab cousin aku pun da bangun n bertanyakan "asal aku msk ko kat depan pc, aku kuar pun ko still depan pc?ko tak reti tido ke?' thing is i cant sleep. what to do ek? tapi..tak bole tido.sbb kawan saya dah pun meng short msg system kat saya..nk g raptai convo.alamak...ley jumpe insan yg aku benci laagi....kenapa laaa aku bernasib malang?hahahhahaa.. aku tak ske diorang!!!!!diorang talam dua muka,talam seri muka,talam keladi dan segala talam yang aku penah blaja dan pandai buat.

da takder idea...laa ni...aku nk bertawakal kat ALLAH...ade rezeki aku,insyaallah...takder rezeki, maasyaallahh.....ape2 pun, aku tau ape rase hati aku. aku tau dia tahu.aku tau tuhan tahu selaut mane sayang,kasih n respect aku kat org tut....rugi oooo klu org tu tatau aku syg kat dia...sbb hy org yg aku sayang je tau cemane sayang nye aku kat dorg..kan2?.so...ALLAH knows the best.. he'll lead me somehow...:) i love to be manage by him.. :) time kasihh... saya sayang kamu sampai kapan pun.... :D..bye..nk g mandi...(hoi...saye tak tido n dah solat beserta gosok gg okeyy!!!!jgn pikey lain2!saye wangi bau vanilla taw!)

p/s = buat pengetahuan anda..saye tak moody..sebab saye ngah happy mase tulis ni... sebab saye sedang bermeditasi.. winks kiri kanan~~

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